This year is in full swing, after about 4 weeks of getting settled in class, and on campus. The buzz has died down.
The buzzing has stopped; have you guys noticed that? The buzzing of wide eyed freshman talking to their parents on the phone about everything has stopped as schedules begin filling up; I remember calling my mom about 4 times a day to tell her about everything I learned last year. The crowd on trinity lawn has pretty much diminished. And the buzzing of students like me returning to APU, and reuniting with friends they missed over the 4 month summer break has ended, were back together now, no biggie.
Everyone is kinda turning on APU mode now. I know I definitely have, and today I found myself being homesick. I actually missed home, and it’s ironic, because I was dying to get back to my beloved APU.
But, now since all the buzzing has stopped, it’s kind of like, “okay back to reality”. I have homework, I almost forgot what that was this summer, and reading, and I remember what being a broke college student feels like again; especially after leaving the bookstore with heavy brown paper bags I almost resent, both things, not the best.
When faced with realities, people are also faced with fears. Which is what I am starting to battle as well, now that my sophomore year has begun, I have commitments I have to make and goals I’ve set, that I really do want to reach. But, it’s gonna be hard. As excited as I am, I am also worried, that failures from last year will creep up on me this year, or I won’t be able to meet those goals.
However, one of the benefits of going to a Christian school, you’re never too far away from someone who reminds you of how God is on your side.
So this year, I aim to meet my goals, with God on my side. It’s going to be tough, because last year sure did kick my butt, it was hard; well, most things that are God driven, usually are anyway.
But, I’m fortunate that my excitement and attitude outweigh those worries that can hinder me from my fullest potential.
Anyway, that’s my outlook for this year, it’s here, and it’s already begun, no more steps back, only forward from here on out.