Lindsay Cooper’s Archive

Journey On

Wednesday, January 26th, 2011

I don’t know if you have ever felt this way, but lately a feeling of restlessness has been creeping into me. This last semester, for me, felt like four incredible months of rejoicing–I could not get enough of Jesus and what He was doing in my life. Still, I could not help but feel as though this rejoicing was partnered with an inescapable sensation of preparation for something bigger and for something new that was to come in my life.

Often, I got impatient in my restlessness because I wanted all my desires to be fulfilled and I wanted to begin running down the path God has for me. In Romans 8, though, Paul talks about the patience that is involved in the Christian walk, in seeking God’s guidance, and in the journey of redemption.

“For in this hope we are saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all.

Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet

have, we wait for it patiently. In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our

weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself

intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches

our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for

the saints in accordance with God’s will.” (Rom. 8:24-27)

As a college student, I know how frequently my mind gets wrapped up in solving that restlessness in my heart on my own, in figuring out what leadership position I should apply for, and in determining what I should do for the rest of my life. While I was so excited for what God was doing already, I became uneasy because I felt the Holy Spirit drawing me to something more.

And let me tell you, there is SO much more.

Currently, I am sitting in my chalet in Pietermaritzburg, South Africa looking out my window at a lush, green jungle and rushing waterfall. Okay, that was an extremely understated introduction to my current location. I am in South Africa! Studying abroad for four and a half months without the United States, without my close friends, and without the comforts of home seems crazy. But let me tell you, excitement overcomes any fear or discomfort I may feel. Over and over again, I have felt, read, and heard confirmation that God is going to do great things during my time here and I cannot WAIT to see what it is.

The Waterfall

The Waterfall

After twenty-nine hour plane ride, two days in a hotel, and three different buses (and I thought I was restless before), I am finally settled in this beautiful place surrounded by the most incredible group of people and the rich presence of God. I still have no idea what to expect out of this semester, but, conveniently, that means I have no expectations. I do have big hopes and dreams for the Lord in this place, but I am sure He will out-do my plans, like always.

One thing I am sure of, the uneasiness I felt before has quickly disappeared. Maybe that is a sign that I am in the right place. Besides, there is nothing a run through the jungle with a herd of zebras cannot cure, especially boredom.

For those of you who relate to the restlessness that I was feeling last semester, I encourage you to journey on. Keep your eyes open for those opportunities to serve, to lead, and to dive into things the Lord may put in your path. While this semester has only begun and I have yet to see all that this experience has to offer, I also encourage you to look at places to study abroad. Get out of your comfort zone and go somewhere where there are nuclear bugs and no hot water. Trust in the Lord to lead you down HIS path. Enjoy the journey because He is faithful.

Ready, Set, Go [Home]

Wednesday, January 19th, 2011

Over this Christmas break, a few friends and I committed to reading the book of Ezekial. Why? We weren’t really sure, but it was clear during our last Bible study before break that we should. I had never read Ezekial before and, honestly, I didn’t expect to relate to its content. I mean, how could prophecies about the demise of countless nations and rulers relate to my life? What struck me, however, had nothing to do with the prophecies themselves, but rather the prophet.

In Chapters 1-3, the Lord reveals himself to Ezekial in a powerful way, which causes Ezekial to stumble to the ground and fall on his face in reverence before the King of Kings. Interestingly enough, it is in this state–one of complete humility and helplessness–that Ezekial hears his calling from the Lord, a calling that struck my heart.

God does not tell Ezekial to go to the farthest edge of the world nor to the most primitive people nor to the most unknown culture–He tells him to GO HOME.

“He then said to me: ‘Son of man, go now to the HOUSE OF ISRAEL

and speak my words to them. You are not being sent to a people of

obscure speech and difficult language, but to the house of Israel–not to

many peoples of obscure speech and difficult language, whose words

you cannot understand. Surely, if I had sent you to them, they would

have listened to you. But the house of Israel is not willing to listen to

you because they are not willing to listen to me.’” (Ez. 3:4-7)

Sometimes, the people who frustrate me the most are those who are closest to me, those in my family, those who are most similar to me. Consequently, I often show the most compassion and desperation for the people of the world who are most unlike me in color, language, and culture. Why is that? I am not saying that going out in the world to those “peoples of obscure speech and difficult language” is a bad thing–there is ample need to the gospel all over the world. However, some of our biggest problems are right at home.

I can name a few people, all of whom are exceptionally close to me, for whom I am in constant prayer. It is because of them that I relate to Ezekial’s call–sometimes those who are most like you are the most difficult to reach and the most obstinate to the message of Christ. The fact that they can look at my life and see that it–as far as appearance, language, and culture goes–is not much different than their own, inhibits their desire to change and slows the message of the gospel.

The purpose of this message is singular: Don’t assume that the need for Jesus Christ is greater far away from your world and your family or friends. Sometimes the person in greatest desperation for the gospel has been standing right next to you your whole life. Reach out to them.

Often I hear people get frustrated with being here at APU because they feel as though they are wasting their time. They would rather be out changing the world rather than studying about it. GO HOME. You will be surprised, as I think Ezekial was, at how much your brother, mother, father, cousin, aunt, grandfather, or best friend may need to hear what you have to say.

Enjoy life here and rejoice in the good news of what He has given you!

Destination: Kingdom

Tuesday, November 16th, 2010

“…listen:there’s a hell

of a good universe next door;let’s go”

—e e cummings

Have you ever felt the desperate and earnest desire to simply go? Transportation, schedules, and destinations suddenly have no meaning; you need to GO—go away from your current location, go away from your comfortable life, and dive into people’s lives that are void of hope and rife with confusion. Your soul is restless, unable to solve the equation of life, but not necessarily looking to find the solution. No part of yourself feels connected to where you are—even your feet are loosed from the ground—and your heart is plastered against the back of your chest, broken and simultaneously aching to escape. Somewhere in the back of your mind is the constant beckoning to a neighboring universe that is standing at your fingertips; a universe that, if you would extend your hand toward it, would come sprinting to hear the truth, jump on your back and say, “Let’s go.”

Several times over the last few weeks I have heard questions such as these asked by frustrated APU students: What is the point of studying about a broken and dying world when I could just go out into it now? How can I be content to sit and learn about those who have lived lives without love, knowing that I am doing nothing to prevent it from happening again? Why can’t I leave everything and just go? Isn’t that what Christ calls us to do?

My initial reaction is one of restraint—I want to convince them that getting an education is necessary to succeed in our society and to prepare them to face the world they are so eager to engage. But then I am forced to think again. Christ did not call us to succeed; he called us to serve. It wasn’t a matter of being educated, either. Preparedness meant nothing. Did He not call the unprepared and lowly to be His disciples?

I am not speaking against going to a university like APU—as an English major with a teaching emphasis I am absolutely convinced of the power and necessity of an education to refine a person’s beliefs, personality, and social and academic maturity in the world. However, when it comes to the yearnings of someone’s heart, my mind’s excuses should not be about the institution of a thing, but about God’s will and work in that person’s life.

In John 4 Jesus encounters the Samaritan woman at the well. I recently studied this chapter with my small group here on campus and was strongly convicted by Jesus’ words and choices. Everyone around Him—the woman as well as the disciples—are solely concerned with physical things; yet, when confronted with each of their excuses, Jesus presents a new way of thinking and gives a wider, more eternal perspective. The woman tells him that the concept of “living water” is impossible because Jesus (1) has nothing to draw water with, (2) could not possibly reach to the bottom of the deep well, and (3) could not possibly be greater than he who had built the well. Jesus responds, however, saying that He himself is the source, that from Him such living water flows, not from a man-made well. Later, when the disciples return and offer Jesus food, Jesus refuses their attempt to supply his physical needs and says, “My food […] is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.” Jesus does not even acknowledge their objections, but rather encourages them to think differently.

To think eternally.

To put their faith in that which lasts.

To follow the will of the Father.

To trust His word and not their own feelings.

I cannot stifle the sound of a heart crying, “Hosanna!” and longing to go out into the world. But I cannot encourage their convictions without direction. Jesus’ food was neither to stay nor go, but to let the God who sent him direct his path. Let the Holy Spirit be your living water and your supply. Run with abandon to the Father and earnestly seek His will—He may send you charging to the battlefield of this world, moving you with an unshakable hope and a flaming passion to see His kingdom come.

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Ask God to show you HIS kingdom, not yours. Ask questions and drink of the living water that Christ freely gives.

“‘Sir,’ the woman said, ‘you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water? Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and rank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?’

Jesus answered, ‘Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” John 4:11-14 NIV

Do you believe in magic?

Wednesday, October 13th, 2010

Calvin's Magical World

Have you ever had one of those days when everything is beautiful?

I think everyone longs for those moments in which the world, and all its possiblities, appears fresh and new. Although we are already well into first semester here at APU, for you freshmen, this is still just the beginning of your journey here, a journey that is sure to be full of new experiences and excitement. I remember first pulling into the APU parking lot on move-in day last year, my car bursting at the seams with suitcases, boxes, and pillows, and having absolutely no idea what the next year would bring. I was somewhat fearful, but nevertheless thrilled to see what I would encounter.

Even in a place like APU, however, it is easy to slip out of this initial excitement and trod down into a steady routine in which those moments of exhiliration become fewer and farther between. This is where I meet you now: in that least exotic of places–the middle–halfway through this semester and immersed in the routine of classes and college life.

For me, this semester has been the busiest of my life with school, work, different volunteer services, leadership positions, friends, and other events; however, even amidst all of these things, I cannot help but feel as though I am repeating the same things over and over again. While I am never bored, I become weary of doing things and often lose sight of simply being in those things, blinding myself to how God may be working in my various activities. It is in those times that I feel the need to have a “Calvin and Hobbes” moment.

Calvin, a six year-old boy, views the world with such vivid child-like imagination that he draws you in to join him on his adventures, to discover with him, to experience the novelty of the world. You and I live and see vicariously through him–we look beyond our “adult” vision for a moment and watch through the eyes of a child. Isn’t it funny how little kids are able to see things that you and I would normally miss? Isn’t it interesting that something that you have seen a million times, possibly something that bores or even irritates you, can be magical to them?

I had an experience like this the other day. Every Tuesday afternoon I babysit a little boy who, like Calvin, is able to create ridiculous scenarios and crazy games, and yet, in the middle of it all, say things that are effortlessly profound. This last week, it was pouring rain. As a life-long, southern California native, I have never experienced a deep connection with the rain, to say the least. Sure, there are times when I love the feeling of curling up in a cozy blanket, drinking hot chocolate, and watching the rain–all from the indoor comfort of my dry, heated home, of course–but last week, I was simply tired of its inconveniences. As a preventative measure, then, I came up with several ideas for indoor activities Sean and I could do–science experiments, an indoor scavenger hunt, crafts, board games etc. Apparently, however, I was thinking of all the wrong ideas.

Immediately after I picked Sean up from school, he told me, in great detail, his incredible idea for our afternoon together. (Lesson #1: Never try to make plans with or for a precocious six year-old; he will always create something much more exciting and imaginative than your baking soda and vinegar volcano experiment.) His idea was simple, and only had 5 basic requirements:

#1: Hose down the trampoline until it is soaking wet. It had been raining, so we had already achieved this goal.

#2: Cover the trampoline with a thick layer of dish soap.

#3: Spray more water onto the soapy trampoline to create a lather.

#4: Wear plastic bags over your feet so as to maximize slipping and sliding.

#5: Attack the babysitter at all costs.

After asking myself, “How the heck do you think of something like this?” I realized I had neither a change of clothes nor a way out of participating in this activity. Needless to say, after several hours of falling all over the trampoline in the rain with a slippery, soapy child leaping on top of me and rubbing suds in my face and hair, I was a mess. You probably could have washed your car with the amount of soap that was embedded in my jeans.

I write this with a purpose, though. After being outside for a short while, I made one final objection to this activity, as if I could somehow persuade him that my reasoning was correct. (Lesson #2: Reason means nothing to six year-olds.) Despite the obviousness and simplicity of his statement, his response caught me by surprise.

“Are you sure you don’t want to go inside now? It’s starting to rain pretty hard.”

“No way! The rain makes it so much more fun! Come on, Lindsay, jump higher.”

And he was right. By the end of this adventure, it seemed as though I was having even more fun jumping around than he was; but before it all began, I had been trying to prevent it from happening. I had attempted to plan activities that would limit our afternoon to the indoors, not even stopping to consider that the rain may have been more beautiful than I had thought. Looking through a child’s eyes, it suddenly became magical.

How often do I lose sight of the beauty in things that I think I have all figured out, things I have seen a million times? How easily do I lose that initial magic and excitement of something just for the sake of a routine? The middle is the hardest part of a journey, no matter what journey you are on, and those moments where the beauty of the world is extraordinarily evident are necessary to maintain perspective. To reverse, rethink, and move forward. To encourage. To see that the journey does not stop in the middle, but has a greater ending and a larger purpose. When was the last time this happened to you?

STOP.

THINK.

Photo I took on a short trip to Honduras two years ago.

Two little girls I met in Honduras--look at those eyes

Re-open your eyes to see the world differently this week. View the things you do through the eyes of a child, of someone bursting with imagination and unaware of expectation. Pause and close your eyes and let them be opened to see the way God has weaved himself into the world. Seek after Jesus and in the process notice life again.