Ellie Kipps’s Archive

no place like home.

Tuesday, January 19th, 2010

When you are an english literature major, little things like fascinating words and retellings of ancient stories can just about make your day.

When you are a biblical studies major, little things like word studies and new readings of ancient stories can just about make your day.

So now you see why I became both. This semester, like last semester, is already proving to be incredibly daunting and epically exciting. My days are mostly made up of studying intense literature and scripture, dappled with hebrew here and there. And I really could care less what anyone calls me coughnerdcough, I love it. I love school. And any of my readers know that.

But beyond school *I know…. I didn’t quite believe such a thing could exist EITHER!*, I love my home, here at Azusa Pacific University. Way back in my first or second post on this blog, I made a little film showing my roommates. My good friend and last-semester roommate, Rachel, decided that for her the best route was to transfer to another school in order to be educated in a very specific branch of academic: sign language linguistics. So Stephanie and I were curious to see if we’d be getting to get another roommate, and what she’d be like and all that jazz. Turns out we got one! Her name is Michelle and she’s a brilliant theatre major wanting to go into psychology. So our little home is complete again.

And when the days are long (as being a double major, they can often be despite loving what I’m studying), I love love love to just come home to my little apartment and be with my amazing roommates. Living with someone who you wouldn’t, especially when we decided last year to room together, name as your best friend, but a person that you get along with and you just enjoy their company, has been so so so good.

Stephanie and I have grown close in a very different way this past year, and even now I almost feel like our relationship encompasses more than a friendship, because when we meet together in our home there is no pressure to be anything, no need to plan fun activities, or anything. It is just being, studying, cooking, living around each other. We’ve gotten to know the littlest quirks of our personalities and how to laugh about them. We have learned together how we work best, what we need from each other on good and bad days, how to care for one another deeply, but also have our ‘own’ lives. Unspokenly we miss each other, need each other, and actually despite all the little random arguments and frustrations that crop up when you are living in tight quarters with another person, we really like being together. There is no pressure to go out of our way to hang out, but we want to. And that’s just a kind of joy that I’ve never really experienced before.

So some of you may be worried about your dorm assignments for your freshman year, and I’m not going to say that it is perfect. But I can say that you will find your way, that even if your roommate freshman year and you don’t mesh perfectly, you might find that you learn really important lessons from that experience and that maybe your next-dorm room over neighbor will become what Steph and I have become for eachother (Steph was my next door neighbor freshman year, curiously enough :P). And maybe in your sophomore, junior, or senior year, you’ll find yourself standing in your apartment feeling like, for this moment, there really is no place like home.

ten days.

Wednesday, December 9th, 2009

There are ten days left of this semester, including finals week. While this week seems to be going slowly, all in all the semester has sped by. I cannot believe that in 6 months, I’ll be 20, and I can’t believe I’m more than a 1/4 done with my college career. This semester has been rewarding, difficult, stretching, and memorable. I’ve lived in an apartment with two other girls, sharing space, lives, food, time, music choices, and dreams with each other. I’ve learned to write my story and learned that I’m called to tell others’. I’ve fallen in and out of love with theology more times than I can count this semester (most definitely loving it right now), and I’ve truly started to see how the Cross is the very thing my life is nailed to, the very essence of Divine and the very beauty of humanity, the meaning of grace.

Last week after thanksgiving was a blast, with just good times with friends, great lessons learned in class and outside through professor’s words and readings, and the change to christmas time. On friday, I went with a bunch of friend to a concert called Celebrate Christmas, which is the annual School of Music’s Christmas concert. It was amazing to hear hymns and carols sung and played by APU’s own talented students. I might post a video of a song I recorded Man Choir singing that night in a few days once I figure out if it is okay to post (copyright stuff… yeah, they are THAT good… haha).

Chamber Singers and the Orchestra

Chamber Singers and the Orchestra

Men Chorale singing All is Well... aka Men's Choir Amazingness!

Men Chorale singing All is Well... aka Men's Choir Amazingness!

The Church were Celebrate Christmas was... it was HUGE!

The Church where Celebrate Christmas was... it was HUGE!

I also hung out with my amazing roommates

and made a gingerbread house (very christmas-y):

Our... interesting... Gingerbread House

Our... interesting... Gingerbread House

And my church also had a children’s christmas pageant celebrating Advent. It was quite possibly the cutest thing I’ve ever seen! And a very good message about identity and humility. My roommate, who works with the youngins at our church, and I loved it.

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Children's Advent Play at my church

Now, it is time to prepare for finals (yikes!) and get ready to go home for 3 weeks before the new semester starts!!

turkey, theology, and the end.

Monday, November 30th, 2009

I haven’t posted in over a month, very unusual for me, and my apologies to my reader are sincere. But life has taken on a…. mind of its own (perhaps? if that makes any sense). So now, I’m writing from my living room back home home watching USC beat UCLA football and thinking about the future.

For me, coming home my first semester of my freshman year was a nuisance. I wanted to be at college, experiencing the freedom, loving the autonomy of my own space, my own room, my own ideas. As an honors student, it threw me off to come home (which for me could only happen on holidays as I live 300+ miles away from campus), and not have my study space.

This year is has been very different. I was never homesick my freshman year, and this year I wasn’t exactly homesick, but I missed my family, and my friends, and I started to really appreciate my home home for what it was. It was so easy for me my freshman to call APU my home. It’s just that welcoming. I felt so comfortable and like I really was home. But now, as a sophomore and living truly on my own in an apartment in one of APU on-campus apartment complexes called University Park, it’s been a change in my attitude. My apartment truly feels like home, and during the day I can’t wait to get back to my place with my wonderful roommates and just relax and do homework, but there is something about having my own place, maybe it’s the kitchen and the attempts to recreate my mom’s cooking, or trying to decorate and make it feel welcoming, that made me appreciative of my childhood home.

I write this because it’s important to be excited about college, about creating a place for yourself in the world apart from the places you’ve maybe known all your life. But it’s also really important to spend time with family, and come home from school understanding that while you were making a place for yourself and growing and changing, the world at home kept going, and that families and church youth groups and high school friends kept growing and changing. As a freshman realizing this seemed both obvious and daunting, and I didn’t want to think about it. This year I’ve realized that part of maturity is recognizing and embracing that the world around me is continuing to grow older as well and that is actually an exciting reality. It means that dry old hometowns are made new again, that I have new people to meet in the faces and the hearts of old friends, and that family relationships can be still be invested in, can still be changed.

The semester is almost over, three more weeks until I’m back home for winter break, and I’m excited about heading into the future, but tuckered out by the workload this semester. Another great things about breaks is just that…. they are breaks. They are a chance to breath and refuel (on yummy food) and sleep (a much needed thing) and write a blog about appreciating where you are at, where ever you are.

halloween and homework.

Monday, November 2nd, 2009

So today is Halloween, and I’m writing a paper. I’ve never been super into Halloween after about age 10, but it’s been great to see carved pumpkins and some ridiculous antics around campus. Last night a few of my friends dressed up like old people and there were trick-or-treaters in the Mods (a sophomore living area), so I thought that was funny.

Right now, I’m trying to gear back up for another challenging week ahead. Sometimes it is hard staying focused with all these events around, but it has taught me a lot about self-control. Though, right now, I’m really distracted by quite a few things, including my plans to study abroad next year, starting at High Sierra, and then possibly on to Australia. Unfortunately I don’t think I’ll be able to go to Israel this summer, but I’m so excited about studying in High Sierra… it’s ridiculous. Hah. I’m also distracted, in a good way, by thinking about the things I learned this week.

This past week was Global Vision week, and basically it is a week where there all these events around campus that are Mission-minded, and are designed to make APU students think about the world as a whole, when sometimes we can get trapped in the bubble of southern california or america. All the chapels are internationally minded, and on wednesday, we had a chapel speaker who brought me to tears and created a standing ovation (which I’ve never seen) for at least 3 minutes after he finished. He was an exile from Libya, and was the most amazing christian I’ve ever met. I can’t honestly describe what he said, or why it affected the whole audience the way it did, but it was life-altering. I actually got the opportunity to talk to him for a few hours after chapel, being a part of the student organization here called MESO (Middle Eastern Student Organization), which is a group that strives to have open conversation about profiles and prejudices of the Middle Eastern nations, and delight in the different cultures that are predominately Muslim.

Anyway, I’ve got to get working on this paper, but I’ll post later on how halloween went. Hopefully I can get pictures of wacky costumes tonight. One of my friends is dressing up as a Scot, complete with a real kilt from Scotland. I’m a little scared. But he and I are going to go to HOLLAH-WEEN, an event in my living area that is designed to keep students on campus for Halloween, and thus keep them safe.

pumpkins and papers.

Monday, October 26th, 2009

My favorite season is fall, or at least it was in NorCal (where I’m from). I love when the leaves turn red and flutter down to the ground, and I love the crisp rain that speaks of hot cocoa and fireplaces and good books, but most of all, I love pumpkins: pumpkin soup, pumpkin bread, pumpkin ice cream, and most of all: pumpkin pie. This morning I woke up missing that fall feeling from home, and decided to make pumpkin bread with real pumpkin and a special blend of spices that my family uses. Now my apartment is filled with the smell of baking bread, and I’m feeling pretty homesick.

It is a weird thing to feel homesick as a sophomore in college, but I’m sure I’m not the only one, especially of those here at APU where there home isn’t close. I only can go home on the bigger breaks: thanksgiving, christmas, and easter break, whereas my roommates live under an hour away from campus. I love being away from home, college is a time to get away and learn about new people and new places, but there are days when I miss my northern california roots and my northern california seasons (if you are wondering what the weather is like here, Azusa has one perpetual season: warm, though, don’t worry, you can still get snow like half an hour away [don't ask me how that works, it just does]).

Last weekend, I got the chance to return to my beloved northern california and visit a place I’ve never been before: APU’s High Sierra Campus. Tucked away in the mountains, in the middle of the Ansel Adams Wilderness, seconds away from Bass Lake is this sprawling campus that is a Christian kids’ camp during the summer and one of the satellite campuses APU has during the year. I honestly felt like I had been transported to Narnia (the kid’s camp has a Narnia themed disc golf course), and I was just waiting for Aslan to come out of the forest. It was beautiful.

The reason I went up there was to check out the campus for a preview weekend (like potential students do at main campus), and make sure it was where I should be next year. It is. My plan now is to spend my entire junior year up at High Sierra. Another one of the bloggers, JP, is a student up there right now, and it was pretty rad to get to meet him in person, after reading his blogs. He’s a great guy, and I see God working on him through being up at High Sierra, and that is a beautiful thing to see. It was good for me to be up there, to hike and shoot archery and read Karl Barth sitting on the porch overlooking the forest.

Here is a little movie I put together about my time at High Sierra, it’s silly and not well filmed, but oh well. And I also am including two other videos about High Sierra, one where our University’s President Jon Wallace (or J-Dub) talks about it, and also another one that the Study Abroad office put together. Have fun watching!

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Alright, well, I have papers to write, so I’ll try to keep you updated as the semester continues to provide quite the challenge in the academic front!

mountains and midterms.

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

This past weekend I headed up to the High Sierra Campus… which I swear I will post ALL about with video and pictures after this week.

This week is midterms. I’ve got two huge exams, and two huge papers due one after another. It’s weeks like this that really make me thankful for a God who meets us right where we are, even in the middle of extreme stress. Today at chapel, God worked on my heart and anxiety about this week and my attitude towards school through the worship and message. He reminded me that I’m here at APU in the classes I have for a reason and that I do really love school… even though it gets overwhelming sometimes.

I will post soon with fun pictures, but here is a sneak preview:

I may or may not be dressed up as an angry deadliest catch captain creeping a clown. May or may not.

I may or may not be dressed up as an angry deadliest catch captain creeping a clown. May or may not.